9295.8 Miles

You can give me all the money in the world, but I'd still won't be able to afford it.





If only one could buy time.

i painted skies

Wise men say, only fools rush in.


In the early stages, we might have. But you know what, I'm glad you took a chance.
I'm glad I took the risk.
I'm glad that we're here.


At first of course, it was a bit selfish of me to view you in a different light. I had hopes that you would help me ease the pain away... It was wrong of me, I know. But I didn't expect any of this to happen.
I was in no position to receive such blessing. I'm not worthy of it.

Maybe I went through all of those crap because God had bigger plans for me. Well, from your side, I guess it's a different case because you're a bit unlucky... because well... I'm... me. (The girl is too complicated, she can't even verbalize herself into words. Sigh.)

I'm not making any sense at the moment and for those who are totally lost, my apologies.
I guess when you're happy, you tend to be at a lost for words.
All I can say is, alhamdulillah. I thank God for you.








And oh, here's a cat.

leap year

We just passed the 29th of February which comes only every 4 years.
Goodbye Fitness February, it's time for us all to March on.

Now here's a guideline for everyone in order to survive this month;



Now hold out a peace sign.

This means victory,
This means peace,
It also means
Two hamburgers please.

now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end
Always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad that it was over
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsty.com/gotye-somebody-that-i-used-to-know-lyrics.html ]
But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened
And that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger
And that feels so rough
You didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records
And then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believing it was always something that I'd done
And I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know... 

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened
And that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger
And that feels so rough
You didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records
And then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

I used to know
That I used to know

Somebody...

When words fail, music speaks right?

and in the morning i'll be with you, but it will be a different kind

Right. Second semester.
Hectic.
Exciting.
Saddening.
Stressful.
Surprising, to say the least.


And I don't know how much more I can emphasize on how much I loathe group works.
I mean, I'm okay with my group mates, don't get me wrong - but it's hard to find the time to sit down and have table talks when everyone is having different schedules. Curse you ADP.
ALL. DAY. PRESSURE.

The class I probably enjoy most at the moment is my PR class. Hey, I might be a rookie, or the baby in the class (as some put it), but I'm getting along pretty well. I don't have much friends in that class and I'm always alone, but whatever.
The assignments given in this class will definitely keep me busy.
It'll put me to the test of course, but I always seem to smile at the thought of being preoccupied.

Doesn't give me much room to think about other things. Ones not worth thinking about.



***


skinny love adj.
Love that's too skinny to survive. It's not properly fleshed out, and is doomed to failure.



Still I don't know why I'm holding on.

dazed

An Indie Affair from ThePartyScene on 8tracks.

Guilty as charged.
You don't have to smoke pot to get high.

visualize

the future.


Today's the last day before studying life resumes.
I think I can safely say that I'm stable at the moment; mentally, physically and spiritually.
Pray that this is going to be a good semester for me, for us all.


I don't know about you, but I'll make it.
You just watch.

true story, bro

a phoenix, rising up from the ashes

What was I thinking? Punishing myself and being so sad over something, ANYTHING, when I've got tons to be happy about?
This always happens to me. When you're just too caught up, you tend to forget what's important.

It's alright. If we didn't make any mistakes, how would we learn right?



I am done with that shit.
I am strong.
I am beautiful.
I am loved.
And I have You, Allah.



Sayonara, alter ego. I won't miss you.

au revoir

Who knew I got so much anger in me?
All it takes for a nasty blow up to happen is a girl and her monthly menstrual cycle which comes in a package of hormonal imbalance + stupidity + cooped up emotions and a whole lot of crap that can lead to her not thinking straight. And wisely, if I might add.


It's 3.29 AM right now and we're leaving for the airport at 4.45.

I don't even know why I'm not asleep. There are two major reasons why I should not leave sleep.
Major reason A) I'll be left with my thoughts and I'll play through all the "what-if's" scenarios in my head and go loco all by myself. *cue music* all by myseeellffff... don't wanna be all by myseeelfff anymoreeee 
Major reason B) I'll get hungry.

Speak of the devil. My tummy just growled.




At the moment, I'm emotionally unstable. I'm a hopeless wreck. But I do hold up pretty good most of the time I even impress myself. Hey, guess I am cut out for theater.
When all I want is just my bunny...
But what do I get?

May this trip help me find inner-peace, restore my chi and ignite my strength for what's to come. Especially uni (which is resuming in one week's time).

This trip might be exactly what I need right now.

Isolation.