Saturday, July 18, 2009


Hello Love :)

how are ya doing today?
i'm fine thanks for asking

so, i was browsing blogs and then....

Time dgn Hanan:

Actually if I'm with this weirdo kiddo Hanan x kena marah dgn cikgu.Because Hanan ni Budak Baik.I miss you man!But
with Hanan we're talking about guys?haha..stupidd.No laa.Kita just ckp about ppl yg kita kenal,lol.Example like come on I told her
everything.I like this and that.Then Hanan ada scandal with my friends!haha.Come on she's pretty inside and outside.I mean guys okayy!Not girls.Shoottttahhh.She is so not into Lesbosssess.haha

haha. pardon her gedikness (ngeheh) but thats how Thiya rolls.
turns out, someone misses me. awww

for the past few weeks (or months cant recall), i've been out of reach from my old friends or we just rarely
see/bump into each other. yeah i miss them. a lot.

most of them moved. to other places, other classes, other friends...
i'm just there. sitting in between all of them. on the fence, both sides equal not one weighs more.

maybe you see me like i dont care anymore, youre wrong.
i hear news from you all the time. and if i dont ask, it doesnt mean that i dont care.
it doesnt mean that i dont know.
it doesnt mean that youre not important. because you are.

sometimes, i just dont have the guts to ask.
sometimes, i just dont want to interfere.
sometimes, i think i just dont deserve or have the right to.

i just want you, my dear friends, to know that i'm always there.
my body might not be beside you, to offer you a shoulder to cry on
but you should know, my spirit is always present. feeling what youre going through,
understanding your hardships and giving you support.

i'm sorry for my constant absence. i really wish that things would just go back to the way it used to be.
but we have to move on. and look towards the future.
its what us humans are made for. to test God's challenges and conquests. to put ourselves to test.

i know you miss me, well i miss you too.
if you feel a certain presence near you, that will be me,
loving you no matter where you are.

spreading love,
hanan syahmi